Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Pray

Justin Bieber - Pray

Ohh Ohh Ohh .. and I pray
I just cant sleep tonight.
Knowing that things aint right.
Its in the papers, its on the tv, its everywhere that I go.
Children are crying.
Soldiers are dying
Some people don't have a home
But I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey
Can you tell me how I can make a change
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray

I lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight.
And when I sit up, cause my dinner is still on my plate.
Ooo I got a vision, to make a difference.
And its starting today.

Cause I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey

Haven`t tell me how I can make a change
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day

I close my eyes and pray
For the broken-hearted.
I pray for the life not started
I pray for all the ones not breathing.
I pray for all the souls in need.
I pray. Can you give em one today.
I just cant sleep tonight
Can someone tell how to make a change?

I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and pray
I close my eyes and I can see a better day
I close my eyes and I pray

I pray ..

Maher Zain - Inshaallah

Every time
You feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost and that you're so alone
All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless you can't see which way to go
Don't despair
And never lose hope
'Cause Allah is always by your side

Chorus:
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
You'll find your way

Every time
You commit one more mistake
You feel you can't repent and that it's way too late
You're so confused
Wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full shame
But don't despair
And never lose hope
Coz Allah is always by your side

Chorus

Turn to Allah
He's never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
Ya Allah
Guide my steps, don't let me go astray
You're the only one who can show me the way
Show me the way
Show me the way
Show me the way

InshaAllah
InshaAllah
InshaAllah
We'll find the way

It's been tough time for me . i almost give up on everything i do . :(.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Should i Cry?

I have been lying about my feelings. it is now hurt me deeply. i tot that i was so strong. but in the end. i weak. i became weaker n weaker.

I lost my Dad on 16 Oct 2010. He passed away in front of me. untill now i am quite shocked about it. That was my 1st time feeling d stop nerves. Seeing how those "malaikat maut" menarik nyawa ayah from his body. i m totally freak out!!.

I always keep these memory inside. i m shocked . but i am thankful that ayah passed away with all of us were beside him.

The whole family is still mourning & gloomy until these days. while me. i had tough going thru all this. even my friends came to visit and gave me support. i still feel so broken and something was missing. But i am thankful for my friends which plays the supportive part. i adore you guys. even my sis sharina came to give support to me n my famili.Thanks Akak. Thanks for being here & hug me. really Appreciate it a lot. you know you mean the WORLD to me .

Awhile after. Those loss feeling is hurting deep inside, i dunno wat , how ,when i would be better. i feel HURT!. I get lost in many ways.i screw up many times. my life became slower than never. even how much i tried i failed. gloomy mourning is surrounding me. i start to feel the HEAT of depression. i became more sensitive inside. i feel alone. i feel useless. those the negative facts are sticking w me.


People keep saying "Sabar2". It's how they concern to us. but personally i get more hurt when i m listen to it. Might the words " Redha" is the magic words for me.it just more magnificence random words that i learned to get used to it.

Today!.

The loss that i feel is So BIG for me!!. I had tremendous LOSS just for this year . It was just not my father , but i loss some important people in my life. i dunno how to cope out with all these loss happened in just month after month skaligus.

I survived before , but why cant i survive Now?. Why cant i pass this phase with peace of mind.

I dun want to sccreww up again. n again. If i do.I m sorry. i never meant to do that . i swear.

maybe i should just cry. because i hold the tears for such along time. But everytime i tried to cry, the tears seems degil to fall down.

Obviously, i dunno what actually happening to me at the moment.

Dear Lord , Grant me the strength that i need.